This is real ... NOT, but it could be

Have anyone seen Camp Rock???

Besides the fact that it is the love story that i've been dreaming about since i can't hardly remember; i have a question or something to say: WHYYY OHHH WHYYYY do i let this movies get to me???

I mean, come on ! i'm 23 years old, there's not a chance that i could be forgave, it is diminishing of my capabilities (not to mentioned it makes me doubt about my knowledge); the fact that i have sat here in front of my computer for an hour an a half to see that movie and know it leaves me thinking "WHYYY OHHH WHYYY CAN'T I HAVE SOMETHING LIKE THAT!!!!",..... Iknow I know--> OMG!!, almost ten years thinking exactly the same question and of course no answer have ever been found... not because it does not exist, but because whatever it is thats has been presented to me as a possible reason why it has never happened to me (or anybody else from the real world for that mattered) has been shuttered down with a bow and an arrow, Bow and an Arrow called "Shut up u Pig, let me Dream!".... yeah.. which leads me to my true subject: Why do we let our lives pass us by waiting for that perfect love story to happened?? can anyone tell me?? please?? Why does everyone shuts the true down? is it really never going to happen?

And while I write this down, I have that tune attached to my head...

(8) you are the voice i hear inside my head

the reason that i'm singing

You are the missing peace I need

The song inside of me

This is real, this is me

I'm exactly were I'm suppose to be (8)

Never has a movie been so perfectly mold to my dreamed love story.

And i kinda wonder if the reason to me having that question and not accepting answers (Me being a 23 year old good experienced person) is: that everybody knows that it may never happen,alright, but we shut it down because we are entittle, we have the f*cking right, to hope that we are REALLY REALLY wrong about that.

(8) I gotta find you (8)

Bright -n- Shinny Colors

Don't you just hate songs...

How they are always right when they open your eyes and introduces u to "Oh so Cruel" REALITY! ... I kinda like them though somehow us human ... we just like to suffer a little, selfpunishement... or somehow our own way of sacrifice.. who knows!!??....

This has been the best in a long time....

Speaking (explaining): It's about ewhen thing goes wrong with somebody

but u meet them in ur dream and they r still alright

and the moment when u wake up and u go oh yeah they hate

this is call dreaming with a broken heart

when you are dreaming with a broken heart

the waking up is the hardest part

you roll outta bed and down on your knees

and for a moment you can't hardly breath

wondering was she really here

is she standing in my room

no she is not, cause shes gone gone gone gone gone

when you are dreaming with a broken heart
the giving up is the hardest part

she takes you in with her crying eyes

and all at once you've to say good bye

wondering could you stay my love

would you wake up by my side

no she can't cause she is gone gone gone gone gone

Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?

Would you get them if i did?

No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Those lyrics inflicted on me so much pain for a while, but helped me get over some shit some relationshit.

But I love how accurate those lyrics are to reality, i hate dreaming with a broken heart, but i hate the most the waking up after dreaming all broken hearted... just like the song.

Sometimes all you want is to have something real and healthy, but most of times you just create that idea on your head, and you settle with whatever it is that u receive (which almost never will be something good, or real, or will have anything to do with whatever it is that you managed to convinced yourself it is). When the ball falls in our side of the field we never kick it directly to the goal, we prefer to grab it and wait to see what happens.

When the decision is in our hands, we tend to take the wrong one, cause painful, risky and drama have much more brighter and shinny colors, than safety will ever get.

And we love our Bright and Shinny Colors don't we?