LonG LiVE the KING ...of POP

After spending several hours watching special after special, memorial, after memorial, interviews and videos I've decided that MICHAEL JACKSON is indeed the owner of POP... the king, the major, the president in music city .....

He has always been and still will be the best of the best: music wise, show wise, lyrics with message wise, dance moves wise...outfits wise, even scandals wise.

He was AS GOOD AS IT GETS...THE CELEBRITY...he was it.

Most important word there: WAS

He's gone now, and after spending more than 2 hours watching the coverage of his funeral i can honestly say that HE WILL BE MISSED as a musician, as The King, as the owner of a generation ... and as a human being (which he mastered no mather what anyone says): father, friend, brother, son.

I learned (through his funeral) that besides the public MJ, he was also a great friend, a great father, a great son, he was HUMAN as we all are and that made him even greater. He was probably a lot of fun to be around of, and an amzing friend to keep.....

My favorite part of the funeral was probably when Magic Johnson told everyone about his own amusement to see MJ (the king) eating KFC out of a bucket ....

Just plain Mickey ... eating Kentucky ... like probably everyone of us has done any other sunday afternoon .... amused me to a limit i thought i didn't have... i cried after that with feelings, like a friend was lost, a friend i never got to meet, was gone forever; and that hurts, cuz literally is a loss u'll never gain again.

Anyways, i learned a lot about MJ, and the most important thing i learned is that i would have loved to be his fan, but i'm almost glad i wasn't cuz it wouldn't have been as easy as it has been to pass this last week. I would have been devastated .. not to mention .. i would have traveled over there just to be in the same state (or country at least).

Another of my favorites: We r the World, introduced as MJ's favorite moment in a show; and Heal The World.... both songs made the whole world (more than 1 third at least as CNN established) cry together as one managing to accomplish what those songs were intended for (what mj's meant for them to be). Amazing.

LonG LiVE the KING of POP

...MOONDANCING IN HEAVEN

P.S.:, one more thing i really hope that a group of say 100 of the gazillion fans that MJ has go and look for that ASSHOLE that claim being molested and ruined MJs reputation for nothing ... go look for him and give him a piece of u r minds... or for that matter ... a reason to claim what he claimed ..... i dont think there's anyone in the world that's being hated as much as him ... UGH!!

I'm NOT aFFraid to fall

try reading this while listenning to the song ...

"Somedays i feel like crying don't matter if it is rain or shine, i feel like my heart was broken at least a million times"

Like today, and i just ... did.... no reason at all or maybe every reason, for what is worth ... i don't enjoy crying i find it to be a very cheap cry for calling attention, pity or compassion ... but when i do i do it alone on my bed, i dont let anyone know except for maybe anyone who's reading, mainly cuz i hate it when everyone goes like: EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE FINE U GOTTA BE POSSITIVE ... yeah whatever man!, i know better than that i know everything happens for a reason ... but sometimes u just need to let go and make a pause and go: WHAT IF THAT'S JUST A LAME EXCUSE FOR US TO SETTLE DOWN ?? ....

I went to the movies a couple of days ago with a very dear person of mine, my cousin, my brother mostly, and we talked about it ... but i do think everything happens for a reason... cause there we were at the movies cause my friend stood me up, and i was tired to actually make new plans ... so i went out with him and it was awesome; so my friend screwing on me happened in order of me going out with my cousin and catching up.

... awesome that while i write this down i have to confess that just a minute ago i was watching a movie about best friends, 2 girls that grew together and made everything together and plans and staff and got into this huge stupid fight but at the end of the movie they made up... and i started crying realizing that the reason why i was crying was because i think i don't have someone like that i don't think so anyways: there a couple of friends that i don't exactly know where in the FRIENDSHIP neighborhood are standing; there are others that have a condo in the neighborhood, but they r so left behind, i just dont know; and there's one that has a whole block, but she doesnt live there anymore, she just visits the neighborhood from time to time; there's a couple that have been there almost since forever but there's something missing can't pinpoint what though; there are the new ones, who i love dearly but they r still the NEW ones... and there is a MY family block, they r my best shot at longlasting relationships and thank god my family actually lives in the FRIENDSHIP neighborhood, i love that about us.

So, tonight i cried, cause tonight was my moment of letting go, of feeling down.. i dont let anyone tell me that everything is gonna be fine and stuff BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW THAT, "maybe is to soon to be sure but i really do believe that someday we r gonna have it all", but even though i know that... today i felt like crying, and i hope tomorrow i'll wake up dreaming again, because... life and time are just the path dreams have to become real. You just have to wait and cry from time to time to let go the bad feelings that keep us from keep on dreaming :)

"When the ride gets rough you gotta carry on", "and if the world stops spinning i'm not affraid to fall"

I'm not...

On my SkiN!

CheesecAke LovA

MY CHEESECAKE IS ALMOST DONE ...
it's been done with Splenda :) so is diet and diabetic friendly .. lets see if it's taste friendly too :D

IT IS WAAAY TO EASY ... BUT EXPENSIVE...

you just whip the cream cheese with the sugar and the eggs .... U THRoW A LAYER OF CRASHED COOKIES WITH BUTTER (MELTED BUTTER) and then u just pour the mixed cheese on top ... then to the oven, then to the refrigerator and then VOILÀ!

i SOLEMNLY swear...

that i'm up to no good!!!!

is finally june FINALLY!!!! it's been long 6 months of waiting PROBABLY MORE ...and now we r only a month (or a lil biut more) away from the 6th HP movie....

is gonna be longgg month but worth it... i have a month to reread .. which i probably won't do .. but i have it :)

BurNing Stones : Sometimes u get what u need

Sometimes i just dont know what to do with myself, with this love-subject that hunts me down.. and it hunts me down ... 'till it fuck*ng brings me down.
I really feel like i have no idea of how to take things from point a to point b without turning in the wrong alley! come on!!...

Am i like running on air? am i so wrooongg that i actually think i'm right? are we both wrong? are u deaf ? blind? don't u know ur abc's???

Apparently i have this friend label ... thats glued with magic glue .. and it won't come out not now, not ever ...

I am programmed to be possitive, optimistic even ...... but u can ONLY PUSH SOMEONE SO FAR!!!

I don't wanna go any further cuz it'll hurt and i'm almost done with my healing ...

I can't help but wonder if maybe and just MAYBE it's worth throwing the whole healing process out the window.

And if it is and i don't do it ?

<> DREAM ON <>

i don't have much to say .. the things on my head are either too much to tell or stuck or something they justwon't come out as typing material :(

but ...DREAM ON, All the things come back to you

Happy Birthday to you, My Darling!

It's my Birthday and i'll cry if i want to!!!
Cumpleaños Feliz, Cumpleaños Feliz te desean tus amigos de Parchis!!..
Cumpleaños Feliz, en el día de hoy, te deseamos a ti con el corazon....!

I can't think of many more bday songs to sing to myself, i like this 3 so far, they've been on my mind all morning :D

I'm 24 years old .. and im pretty much proud of everything that i have accomplished so far ... and i'm sure i'll make up for the things that i haven't yet.

It's gonna be a good year ... i know last year was perfect .... this one has to be better !

BRB

i fucking SUCK at commitments ... hahaha so maybe thats why i've never been able to keep a journal, a diary, a scrapbook... or a blog.... nor HAVE A BOYFRIEND HAHAHA

But i've learn that i only live once right .. so i'm gonna have things done MY WAY ... yeah my way is the highway ... so beat it!

I have only one loyal reader (that i know of) and its me, so if u r the other one just let me know so i can force myself to stop sucking at this blog/commitment thing...

About my trip just mentioned in the last post .. OBVIOUSLY it happened i'm gonna try to report some of that, Dec. 2008 - Jan. 2009, something else happened ... and it changed my life, i'm gonna try to put THAT experience on words... keyy word: TRY :)

I'm back.