Bright -n- Shinny Colors

Don't you just hate songs...

How they are always right when they open your eyes and introduces u to "Oh so Cruel" REALITY! ... I kinda like them though somehow us human ... we just like to suffer a little, selfpunishement... or somehow our own way of sacrifice.. who knows!!??....

This has been the best in a long time....

Speaking (explaining): It's about ewhen thing goes wrong with somebody

but u meet them in ur dream and they r still alright

and the moment when u wake up and u go oh yeah they hate

this is call dreaming with a broken heart

when you are dreaming with a broken heart

the waking up is the hardest part

you roll outta bed and down on your knees

and for a moment you can't hardly breath

wondering was she really here

is she standing in my room

no she is not, cause shes gone gone gone gone gone

when you are dreaming with a broken heart
the giving up is the hardest part

she takes you in with her crying eyes

and all at once you've to say good bye

wondering could you stay my love

would you wake up by my side

no she can't cause she is gone gone gone gone gone

Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?

Would you get them if i did?

No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Those lyrics inflicted on me so much pain for a while, but helped me get over some shit some relationshit.

But I love how accurate those lyrics are to reality, i hate dreaming with a broken heart, but i hate the most the waking up after dreaming all broken hearted... just like the song.

Sometimes all you want is to have something real and healthy, but most of times you just create that idea on your head, and you settle with whatever it is that u receive (which almost never will be something good, or real, or will have anything to do with whatever it is that you managed to convinced yourself it is). When the ball falls in our side of the field we never kick it directly to the goal, we prefer to grab it and wait to see what happens.

When the decision is in our hands, we tend to take the wrong one, cause painful, risky and drama have much more brighter and shinny colors, than safety will ever get.

And we love our Bright and Shinny Colors don't we?

Seriously!

whats wrong with him! ...
he confuses me but i kinda know he is playing... but i think, i choose to think that he wants something serious.

But seriously I'm much more clever than that
He's a dear friend of mine, i don't want to accept the fact that he wants to play a game, in which we r both going to lose some; i want to think better of him; but boys will be boys! and i like 'em like that.

Although it is always better to think that someone is choosing your guts, you reach a point in your life where you have already been there and the truth always has been, that is not that much of them choosing you seriously, but of you being seriously in the middle of their path.

You get to acknowledge when you are being used and when you are being chosen;
the painful path of a knowitall in relationSHits teach you how to do that... and thats why i just can't look the other way.

on the need of an english one

Why?? TWO REASONS:
1. I need to work on my English, in order not to forget everything about it
2. I need to express my self in a language that not everyone in my country understands

... uhmmm ok 3 reasons

3. I have three other blogs and i haven't been able to share them with everyone that i wanted... cause they r in spanish